Sickening

CommunalBoundary / Guidance

Documented 3/10/06

Pre-Liberation Qualities:
  • 1st Impression: Triggered by frustration. Accompanied by doubting myself.
  • Location: Stomach – whole belly.
  • Substance: Liquid, thicker than water, but not as thick as oil.
  • Temp: Kind of warm – pleasant-warm.
  • Color: Green, murky.
  • Movement: Churn/slosh. You don't want to move because that might make it worse.
  • Sound: The sound of a thick liquid just sloshing around, sometimes a little vacuum/sucking sounds.
  • Misc: Action: Push this out of my head, do the song, deal with it afterwards, (get on with it).
Pre-Liberation Thought Patterns:
  • I am not feeling good because I am uneasy.
  • I will not move.
  • I want it to be over; I want assurance, some positive feeling.
  • I don't want to go on. I'm feeling doubted and I don't want to feel that way any more.
  • I just want to go away, or for everyone else to leave.
  • This makes me feel like I don't know what I'm doing. It's specific: maybe this song, etc., isn't good.

Through Liberation,
this feeling became
"Sunburst"