Disappointment

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Documented 3/10/06

Pre-Liberation Qualities:
  • 1st Impression: A black hole of hate.
  • Location: Heart and gut; chest area; dinner-plate size.
  • Substance: Dense solid.
  • Temp: Room temp.
  • Color: Black.
  • Movement: Steady contracting/constricting force; strong. Also, the whole thing is growing, expanding outward.
  • Sound: Uugh, groan – let down.
  • Misc: Makes me feel kind of scared. Related to heebie jeebies.
Pre-Liberation Thought Patterns:
  • I am in pain.
  • I cannot breathe very well.
  • I want to take a deep breath.
  • I am guarded around people: "I'm looking at you while you're talking, but I'm hating you while you're doing it."
  • I hate feeling like this.
  • I hate, e.g., the teacher who said I did it wrong.

Through Liberation,
this feeling became
"Uplifting expansion"