Bafflement

Intentional Self

Documented 6/21/06

Pre-Liberation Qualities:
  • 1st Impression: "I can't understand how I'm here again. The last time I catapulted out, I promised myself I wouldn't be here again." I feel like I can't think clearly.
  • Location: In my head, extends outside.
  • Substance: Kind of foggy; thick air.
  • Temp: A little bit warm.
  • Color: Gray, like clouds/fog.
  • Movement: Kind of swirling a little bit – almost makes me a little nauseous.
  • Sound: My voice as a teenager, "Huh? But I thought... How did I get here?"
  • Misc: Just stop.
Pre-Liberation Thought Patterns:
  • I am lost.
  • ...therefore I can't see where to go;
  • ...because I don't understand how I got here.
  • I don't know how to avoid getting here again;
  • ...therefore I want to understand this.
  • I need guidance/help.
  • My interactions with others are confused. I don't understand what's my fault and what's other people's fault.
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Through Liberation,
this feeling became
"Contentment"