Tangible Minds™

Intentional Self

Documented 6/21/06

Pre-Liberation Qualities:

• 1st Impression: I don't trust myself, (bafflement), and I don't trust others.
• Location: Inside, center; it's like the fog gets inside my body: I can't even tell what's me any more; from back of my head, down to my middle.
• Substance: Thick goop.
• Temp: Kind of cold – colder than body temp, but gets very hot when it explodes.
• Color: Generally gray/brown, but when I'm thwarted, turns red.
• Movement: It's like there's a little bit of outward pressure (against my body) but it can't get out. (It's pushing out, and claustrophobia is pushing in, and I'm stuck in the middle.) Churning, makes me want to vomit.
• Misc: There's a sens of being on guard. This can easily switch: when my trust feels violated, this "explodes," turns into hot lava (anger) and I don't know how to cool it down.

Pre-Liberation Thought Patterns:

• I am not sure of anything;
• ...therefore I can't believe any thing or any feeling, or anyone (including myself);
• ...because I need some thing of truth to attach to;
• ...therefore I have to keep exploring until I find it.
• I turn into a blabbermouth, wanting to get some kind of bearing.